Before we conclude this part, let’s not disregard the extremely unsettling parallels between the “protection” Trayvon was offering in addition to extortion I’d been threatened with during the Swift Annex. Because the theory is that at the very least, pay-to-stay extortion can also be partly a security racket. The re re payments you create into the extortionist(s) are additionally supposedly “protection cash” whereby they “protect” you against being extorted or fucked over by others. Which of program means you are owned by them and you're their bitch. This is just what I became attempting to escape by checking in the Box during the Swift Annex.
It that way it sure does when you put! When i ended up being considering what you should do it had been crucial to pose issue to myself during these, the harshest feasible terms. However if anyone had ever placed it that way to Trayvon — or if perhaps for whatever reason Trayvon ever reads this story of my anxiety about him — I’m sure he can be positively furious! He can be heard by me now: “Fuck you, bitch! I did son’t never ever ask you to answer for no canteen shit! And we damn yes didn’t never pay you to do nothin’ on you or force! MAYBE I OUGHT TO HAVE! We begin bein’ your friend cuz I like you, an now you say I’m an extortionist? Git the fuck outta right here! ”
In fact he’d probably say much worse also than that! And it that way, he’d have a damned good point if he put! Particularly in light associated with the occasions that then followed as he and all sorts of the other meals solution employees had been used in F Dorm — that we will explain in Chapter 10. Whatever I made the decision to complete, I'd obsessed about all of the advantages and disadvantages for very long sufficient. I happened to be going involved with it willingly. It absolutely was perhaps not extortion.
And thus, about fourteen days after coming to Rutherford B. Hayes Correctional organization, and only a little over a week after telling Trayvon I became “not at all thinking about adult men, ” we now told him I happened to be ok to complete only a little messing around.
Just how had been “messing around intercourse” with Trayvon? In certain methods it did live up to n’t its advance billing — but which wasn’t Trayvon’s fault. Instead, it had been because in this minimum personal position the opportunities to do most situations rather than get caught are vanishingly little. Our “messing around” consisted mostly of suggestive talk — which, we acknowledge, had been enjoyable.
Beyond that, one possibility was following the final night count, once they would turn the lights down but enable the inmates to utilize the television space for some time. Theoretically there is “no visiting allowed” through that time but plenty of dudes did check out each others’ bunks, and when my next-door neighbors had been all off doing something different Trayvon could come over and lay on my bunk and “visit” and we also could mess around and grope each other provided that we kept a razor-sharp search for anyone coming & going.
A different sort of messing around was at the bath. Assume the 2 of us simply occurred to just take showers during the same time, at a time whenever — oh by the means — no body else was there? But right here once more, we must be careful since there had been constantly individuals coming and going plus the dorm officers station — the Bubble — ended up being immediately.
It wasn’t well before rumors began to travel throughout the dorm. As you possibly can imagine these people were constantly wildly exaggerated — if perhaps we had been actually doing dozens of things it might’ve been great enjoyable! We attempted to be discreet, but …